Hello everyone,
Now that I am sewing a lot of my own outfits, I have way too many clothes to choose from and I don’t know if I will ever have enough time to wear them all. However, there is something to be said about wearing something I created myself. I continue to receive a lot of compliments on my own designs but because I have such low self-confidence I tend to think people are just being nice. The best ones are the ones I get from complete strangers since they don’t know that I sewed the clothes myself. But the main thing for me now is to continue having fun with this new talent I discovered in myself and to continue trying new things. My next project will be making a swimsuit. I already have the materials and I got them cut too, now I just need a cooler day for me to sit down and sew again. (We don’t have central air and it has been in the upper 90s in the last few days.)
On a completely different note, I just wanted to reiterate here that this blog has been an interesting experience for me and that taking pictures of myself and looking at them is a very humbling experience and still very difficult for me. When I see the pictures I sometimes see this deformed big body that is not attractive at all and having the courage to post them and make them public for the world to see is very scary. I am lucky to be surrounded by people who love me and assure me I don’t look bad but it is still really hard. I am learning to love myself again and to enjoy experimenting with fashion since I force myself to try different things to post here. So, for anyone out there who feels like me sometimes, just look at the picture as if you are not the subject, as if it was a stranger. Do you like what she is wearing and how she looks? If so, that is probably what others see too. We live in a world where being skinny is what is considered beautiful but we have to make our own reality beautiful.
Thank you for reading,
Juliana