I am finally back…

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Hello everyone,

I am so sorry I have been MIA for the past month or so. There is actually a good explanation for it and here it goes.

Last spring I started having signs of anxiety and I knew it had to do with all the driving I was doing for work. Those that know me, know I don’t particularly love driving. So driving three to four hours a day was quickly getting to me especially when I would think about all the things I had to get done and I was not doing them because I was stuck in traffic. I did take action and decided to not supervise students for a while so that I can avoid the extra driving. However, at the end of July lots of things happened and it triggered some depression signs on me. Therefore I have been fighting depression since August. There were lots of reasons for this, which I won’t get into them here, but I was able to recognize it from the very beginning so I have reached out for help. I also have a wonderful support system at home that helps keep me going everyday. I will be honest, some days are very difficult for me and some days are a bit easier. Once in a while, all I want to do is lay in bed and watch TV, some days I want to cry and not see anyone, other days I feel like avoiding the world. But then, other days I am happy and ok to do anything. I think the worst symptom I have is to not be able to get things done as fast as I used to. I also struggle just getting started since I have no will to do anything.

I figured I would share this here because maybe someone out there will identify with this and maybe will reach out for help too. I can say I have been doing much better and I seem to have more better days than bad days. Depression is real and it is so internal it is hard to explain, but it is definitely a biological thing and it is a difficult thing to deal with everyday.

Well, as you can see above, we have a new addition to our family. The main reason we got her was to help me through this difficult time and I have to say, all those people who say dogs help us, they are totally right. Her name is Lulu is she has made a world of a difference in my life. Getting home to that wagging tail makes me so happy. It is truly the unconditional love people talk about. Of course, as the fashionista that I am, I have to dress my puppy too so she is the most stylish puppy in our complex. She is a huge success here too.

You might also notice that I have new glasses on. I decided to go more bold with my glasses so here they are. They are the perfect color for me since it is my favorite and half of my closet is that color too. I have been getting a lot of compliments on them too. It took me a little be to get used to them but here they are.

I will try to be a little more consistent in the month of December, maybe on this month of so many festivities I can try to get a picture of each day like I did back in September. Stay tuned and send me good vibes…

Thank you for reading,

Juliana